Bless you for stopping by and reading my post! Please remember today that God made you carefully and wonderfully. You are a precious to Him!
I try very hard to make certain I spend a significant time with God every day. I try. I often fail and when I do the yucks come in. Not demons or some sort of Langolier monster thing, just knowing I haven’t taken the time to acknowledge my “Room Mate.” I try to see Him that way so I know I can’t just go on without talking to Him. He’s always there, so it’s important I speak to Him. As my Friend.
Anyway, if you have been following my life, you know the last few years have been rather tough. As Christians, we tend to try and keep all the negative bottled up because we don’t want people we are trying to witness to see that even as Christians, our lives can be terrible. That we can go through the worst things possible too. And, I am trying to be open about my faults, my mistakes and the fact that I have gone through H E double toothpicks. Not the real one, not the literal hell, just a very difficult season.
My walk with Christ has suffered tremendously. And, in all honesty, it’s been no one’s fault but my own. But, the results are that my marriage failed, I have wandered from job to job, I’ve failed as a father, I have become very ill and morally failed as well. So, now you know too much. But in all this, my God never let me down. He just didn’t.
As I have never made it a secret, you know I love to write. And I write about anything. I have two books in the works and will begin on another here in a couple of weeks. I write on subject matter, reviews, newspaper articles. I have written obituaries, front page and local sports. I write Christian stories, science fiction and detective stories. And page after page of website content. Whatever my mind tends to.
One of my favorite things to write is songs. And I have written quite a few. Never made a dime off of them, but you can’t write just for that. In all honesty, some are pretty good. Mostly Christian and Praise and Worship. God is my source. Always in everything, He is my source.
About 3 years ago, I started a song called “Your Amazing Grace.” No plagiarism here, it does not resemble the great John Newton’s hymn in any way, it simply uses the term reference. I haven’t sung it in a long time. I play the tenor guitar and without it, I sound like a baritone chicken being strung up for dinner. I say I started the song because many times, just like my other writings, I don’t always finish it. But today, I pulled it out and decided to sing it in my morning worship time. Here are the words:
You said, “Seek me, come unto me, and you will find me”
I give all I have, I trade everything to call You my God
Everything for the cost of the Way, for the journey
My home, my possessions, all I’ve understood
To see You, face to face
To know you, and your amazing grace
You said, “Come follow me, you will do greater things”
I chase after You, I follow You as I never have before
The words He gave me years ago now apply directly to my life. It would be hard for me to fully explain. But those of you who know me well and what the last few years have been like will probably understand better. I do apologize for not completely explaining.
But here’s what I take from this, God knows what our future is going to be like. He knows about the ups and downs we are facing. Before we face them. Can He change things? Actually, not as much as you would think. God is bound by His word. He gave mankind free will, to make decisions on his own. Can He override that? Well, to be honest, I’m not sure. He is God and has the ability, I suppose. But He will not break character either.
And His greatest character is that He loves. He is love! We may be with Him in Glory for a million years and still only comprehend a small portion of Who He is. But I do know this one thing: He.Is.God!
Blessing to you!