Emotional Train Wreck on Track One…
Gracious afternoon to you!
I realized a very long time ago that I was a little messed up. Emotionally. I tend to take things different than most guys. I can get more emotional than I like. Stuff can hit me and I just don’t handle it well.
Some things are best for me to avoid, but I just don’t. Soldiers coming home are one of them. Or anything about American military personnel. A friend posted on Facebook an encounter he had with a WWII vet. Totally screwed me up. Short simple paragraph and I’m fighting tears.
I think about how awesome my kids are. I tear up. I read about a person meeting Jesus. I tear up. It’s like Jeff Foxworthy jokes, but it’s reasons I tear up instead “You might be a Redneck.” I know some guys are like, “You got woman DNA.” Nope, I just managed to get a little more than my share of feelings. All men have it, I’m just not so good at keeping it under wraps.
So, I tend to be sensitive, also, to the Holy Spirit. I know I have a few Gifts in me. And, one of them, is empathy. It comes out in my emotions sometimes.
Have you ever felt a thick pressure in your chest? You know, when something bad happens? Or when something great happens? When the Flag is raised? Certain Patriotic songs? Seeing that friend or family for the first time on forever? Or, saying goodbye for a long time? It’s who we are. And honestly, I wonder about people who never have that happen to them. That never seem to be affected by circumstances. Tough as nails all the time.
It might feel good that pain never hits you and messes you up, but it’s not normal. Love within us and pride for the good things of the world should affect us. It’s how we are made. I know emotions can often cause problems. But, being a Vulcan is not really the great thing it’s made out to be. We need those emotions. We just have to make sure they are under control.
It’s the way God made me. So, I guess I just need to remember that.